Okay, Here We Go! The Beginning of Losing the Other Half of Me!

Today is my 54th Birthday!

 

I would never have imagined that at 54 or any other age

I would be fat...and definitely not 100lbs overweight.

 

I can remember at 95lbs. feeling so fat. 

 I'm only 4'9" so that was really my target weight.

Even at my due dates with my pregnancies I was only 119lbs.

After I had my 4th son I did get up to 110lbs

 and then when I was 29 I blew up and weighed 136lbs.

 

For my 30th Birthday I worked hard and lost 40lbs in 6 months.

Yay for me!

I felt so good and was really fit.

A few years and pregnancies later up when the weight again.

As time went on more weight came and I became double my size.

A couple of months ago I was at 210lbs. and now I am at 205lbs.

so my goal is to loose 100lbs by my 55th birthday.

 

I am so embarrassed and humiliated by my weight gain and try not to leave the apartment. 

My son is getting married on Saturday and I am going to look like a hippo.

I don't even want to go to the wedding and for people to see me,

but it is an important day for my son and honestly the day isn't about me.

I wish I had gotten motivated sooner,

but better late than never I guess.

 

So I decided that I will blog about my weight loss journey

and completely put myself out in the world for everyone to see....

mainly so I can't back out and secondly because if I don't have someone to answer to I won't follow through.

 

Me at 30 at 95lbs.

 

Me at 40 around 120lbs

I remember feeling so fat this day and so embarrassed to go to church for Lexie's First Communion.

 

 Me right before I turned 50.

 

 

 



Me at 51 at Lexie's wedding.

I was right around 200lbs.

 

 

NOW SOME OF THESE PICTURES MIGHT BE DISTURBING!!

They are very disturbing to me

but I said I was going to be completely forthcoming.

 

So here are my before shots taken this morning and my measurements.

 

 

 

Bust:  49"

Waist:  45"

Hips:  50"

Thighs:  27"

Calves:  17"

 

I can't believe I am posting these photos.

I hope and pray that next year at this time

I can take a photo's of half of me!