Today is my 54th Birthday!
I would never have imagined that at 54 or any other age
I would be fat...and definitely not 100lbs overweight.
I can remember at 95lbs. feeling so fat.
I'm only 4'9" so that was really my target weight.
Even at my due dates with my pregnancies I was only 119lbs.
After I had my 4th son I did get up to 110lbs
and then when I was 29 I blew up and weighed 136lbs.
For my 30th Birthday I worked hard and lost 40lbs in 6 months.
Yay for me!
I felt so good and was really fit.
A few years and pregnancies later up when the weight again.
As time went on more weight came and I became double my size.
A couple of months ago I was at 210lbs. and now I am at 205lbs.
so my goal is to loose 100lbs by my 55th birthday.
I am so embarrassed and humiliated by my weight gain and try not to leave the apartment.
My son is getting married on Saturday and I am going to look like a hippo.
I don't even want to go to the wedding and for people to see me,
but it is an important day for my son and honestly the day isn't about me.
I wish I had gotten motivated sooner,
but better late than never I guess.
So I decided that I will blog about my weight loss journey
and completely put myself out in the world for everyone to see....
mainly so I can't back out and secondly because if I don't have someone to answer to I won't follow through.
Me at 30 at 95lbs.
Me at 40 around 120lbs
I remember feeling so fat this day and so embarrassed to go to church for Lexie's First Communion.
Me right before I turned 50.
Me at 51 at Lexie's wedding.
I was right around 200lbs.
NOW SOME OF THESE PICTURES MIGHT BE DISTURBING!!
They are very disturbing to me
but I said I was going to be completely forthcoming.
So here are my before shots taken this morning and my measurements.
I can't believe I am posting these photos.
I hope and pray that next year at this time
I can take a photo's of half of me!