My Existence

It's 12:13 a.m. here in New York, no not NY City, a small town in upstate NY. Anyway, I was just wondering where the day went. It doesn't matter how early I get up or how late I stay up I never seem to get that much done. Why can't time just stop for a little while so I can catch up? Catch up on what? Good question! If I do my crafts the dishes. laundry, etc.... don't get done. If I do the housework nobody seems to notice anyway and I feel like I have no time for myself.

What is a girl to do? As you can see I have a lot of questions and usually end up trying to answer them myself. I'm a stay at home mom and crave adult interaction. My other half works a lot so I really don't see him to much and when he is home he's tired. I have pretty much become a hermit. I rarely leave my house. I shop on line, talk to my older kids on line, is there really a world outside of this house? The computer has become a pretty good friend. I can ask it anything and pretty much find an answer. That's sad, Huh? I THINK I NEED THERAPY. Don't you think so?

I always feel better after I've typed something to the computer, like it's my own little dairy. I figure nobody ever reads it anyway so what the heck. I feel like a rat in a box. I do the same things day after day after day and I never seem to get anywhere. Where am I going? Why am I trying to get there? Isn't there a better way to get there? I know, I know, the questions again. I am trying to find myself, I guess, Maybe it's just a mid-life crisis? I don't know, I just wish I could find myself so the journey could find the proper beginning and I could leave this confusing existence I've been in for the last couple of years.

Okay, if I've weirded you all out, sorry!! I'm really not weird. Oh yeah, the fairy pics are NOT because I am into any kind of fairy religion, I just think they're cute!

Thanks for listening!

Sherry

I Really Didn't Forget I had A Blog!

Well, I haven't written anything for quite awhile. I got so overwhelmed with trying to make stuff to sell on Etsy and EBay and then Christmas. I try to do so many different things that I end up not really getting anything of importance done. I have some things for sell finally and I did get some of my Christmas presents done, BUT not all. I am still finishing late gifts.
I feel so unable to really concentrate. I feel more like I'm watching my life go by instead of actually participating in it. Hmmmm.........what to do.
I have been talking a lot to one of my sister's lately and I really enjoy that. I tend to pull away from people and bury myself in my own little world. I have become a hermit. I very seldom go anywhere or do anything in the outside world. I shop on-line except for a couple trips to Wal-Mart every month. I dress like a scum bag. All I ever where is flannel pants and t-shirts (the same ones I have been wearing for 2 years now). I am still incredibly overweight and miserable with myself. Maybe it's some of the medications I'm on, hmmmmm......I don't know, maybe it's just the way I am.....depressed.
On a HAPPIER note, as you can see I have added some slide shows of my crafts and added some decorative pictures on the side of my Blog. I also added a picture of me which was really hard for me to do. One, because there are hardly any pictures of me, I am usually the picture taker and two, because I am embarrassed of the way I look. So please don't be to harsh on your comments and judgements please!
I have also redone my My Space page. Yes, I went on and made myself up a My Space. I like being able to see what is going on in my older kids lives. Sometimes I am on it all the time and then I may go a month or so and not even check on it. Sound familiar, kind of like my Blog, huh????
I need to go to bed, it's getting really late and I have to get up with the kids in the a.m.

So goodnight and Thanks for Listening!

Sherry